Satisfaction??

To say the truth, am not satisfy with myself. Its not from how I looks but it more towards my complex. One thing that I don't have is confidence and courage. I might be seen as someone that shy or not talkative, yes it true but on top of that all, I lack both of it. I don't have any courage to speak out what on my mind as from kids I am someone who never talk as much and it all leads to how I am not be able to think faster enough like others. As for confidence also, I am that one girl who don't like to be a center of attention and hate to speak in front of whole class. I am someone who is like to hear others talk rather than am the one who is talking. And because of that I kinda wish to fix my complex and one day, hope I can do all the things that I could not.